
I have been struggling with my weight since I was about 6 or 7 years old. As a child I was an emotional eater which only got worse when my parents decided to call off their marriage after years of being together. Even though I was 8 years old at the time, I knew that my life was never going to be the same.. that is probably around the same time that I started going in a downward spiral.
During my preteen years I went through a lot of emotional battles with myself. I became very depressed and used food to comfort myself. I dated a man who was 11 years older than I, he was someone who I trusted and felt I could relate to. Eventually he showed his true colours and wound up hurting me physically and emotionally. I have strong emotional scarring even to this day. Shortly after my experience with him I got myself into a very damaging roller blading accident. I ended up destroying my lower back, neck, right arm and right leg. I found myself in a great deal of pain when I would try to exercise or even walk. My depression only grew stronger and as a result I began to turn back to food for comfort.
Through-out the middle of my teenage years I was in many relationships.. each relationship taught me something new and valuable but with every one a little piece of my soul felt like it had been taken away. I would constantly turn to junk food for comfort, feeling like I could just eat all of my pain away, but instead I just added more.
Now, years later, I find myself faced with an enormous decision. My body is getting weaker, I can't sleep, I am short of breath and I am extremely disappointed with my physical appearance. Even though I have made a lot of changes the past couple of years, I have completely disregarded my body and because of that, I am severely overweight.
... I have made the decision to get Gastric Bypass Surgery. I am looking forward to starting my life over again and living healthy. This is not going to be a quick fix.. it is a life altering procedure that will be done for the well-being of my health. I am very excited about this and I hope that anyone who reads this will stand by me.
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