I spent the months of December and January confiding in my YouTube subscribers, not willing to talk to any of my friends or family about my feelings or the events that unfolded in Mexico. By Christmas I felt a lot better about myself and my self esteem started to pick back up once my weight loss kicked back in to high gear. I didn't resort to emotional eating during these months, which I am very proud of, but I did isolate myself, which I am not proud of. At this point I was living on cheese strings and Weight Watchers frozen dinners and dropped an additional 30lbs.
Christmas of 2007 was especially important to me because I was able to see family that I had not seen in 2 years or more. The only thing was that, it wasn't important for me to actually spend time with them, it was important to me that I show them how much weight I was losing. For my entire life I've been compared to (or felt like I was) my cousins, who are both thin and beautiful and having everything going for them, so this Christmas was my chance to feel like I was thin and beautiful and like I was headed somewhere in my life, too. Unfortunately they didn't take as much notice to my new appearance as I would have liked. I'm not sure if they were just not comfortable with HOW I lost the weight or if they just didn't know how to express themselves ... Really don't know. Best things about Christmas were definitely my normal-sized gifts, though.
In the New Year of 2008, I made a lot of very silly videos for my YouTube channel. Since I was planning on moving back to Edmonton in the end of January, I decided just to fill up my time in front of the computer and watching TV.
Sorry about the lack of audio in this one, YouTube removed it because I used a song without authorization.
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